Fire

A disappearance i can say,
that was never intended.

But what's there to say,
i am empty handed.

-tiara










its for that very reason that i am, figuratively speaking,
empty handed.
that is why i have not been posting much.

its not that i am losing it.
it is because i have found happiness.
wish me luck!

Lemon Chamomile

I've seen you, far away
Vaguely, i recall, you were in dismay.

Coz once a pretty, dainty young thing walked past,
You offered all, hoped everything lasts.

You took two steps back, to avoid a bad fall.
then realized she's not worth it, not worth it at all.

Now all you do is drink
hot tea,
in the hopes that someone
will set you free.

-tiara

i stumbled upon these earlier in the day
in my little notebook that i usually write in.
i wrote it quite a while ago.
hope u guys like it.

!PLUS. lemon chamomile works best with honey [its a type of tea btw.]

tea

im ill.

ive got flu.

i woke up and made myself a pot of tea.

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i have recently done something,

which has got links to straighforwardness and what i feel.

after experiencing an awkward feeling

and saying what ive wanted to say,

i had a brief moment of relief.

is that what all tactless people feel?

a sense of satisfaction after a moment of honesty.

i guess so.

but it leaves me worried.

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Rome

hey.
after watching something from the tv
i have decided to travel to Rome one day.

lazy sunday

on friday,
i, triumphantly managed to save my cigarrettes from ppl. not.
it didnt occur to me that i am about to get very, broke.
and now i am.
so much for splurging on cds.
among three of them that i bought
the only one that was good was Zee Avi's album.
listen to Poppy, First of the Gang to die, I am me Once More.
good.
my mum just baked brownies and i remembered promising a good friend
that id bake him some.
geez, i am a lazy person.
but i would bake him one, sooner or later.

so having two jobs is not much of a big ordeal
it has its incentives and its downsides.
i have not much of a social life, its hard for me to get into a serious relationship.
since time was never a friend of mine, spending time with special ppl is just
almost to impossible.
but i am trying.
whats worse is that i am fickle.
so we never do go anywhere, do we?

im pretty convinced that im confusing everyone around me.
so i am not sure what to say or how to react to things as well as, uhm
i dont know, do you??

also i wonder if people do read my blog.