i try very hard not to use the word insomnia because i notice that people seem to find it as though it is an extremely cool and fancy word to use and it has been overused again and again.
but then again, i can't help but to use it if it is exactly what i'm going through. it has been a week without proper sleep and my eyebags gets worse and then comes along the mood that i am in.
all my life i always try to not say things too much because i do not want to annoy people with trivial things such as how is my day and how do i feel about a certain dress or shirt i bought. the less i say, the more people might feel comfortable around me. it was not that i was actually trying to fit in, no. i like being quiet. but there are those moments when i feel like blabbering out all that i really feel about things. sometimes, being quiet and aloof can be my undoing.
people can't seem to understand how i truly feel or what im thinking of when i look at them in a certain way. what is worse, people usually think that the things i say are to be taken lightly. the problem with me is my gestures aren't what people think to be normal. they misunderstand.
but it really is not their fault, no. its mine. i have been so detached with this world till, so it seems, i am out of touch with the communication of the people around me.
i feel like an awkward being.
i cant even prove the love of my life how much i love him.
