i am in pain.
ive been wondering bout what i might lose.
or what im about to lose.
its something that i want so much
i feel uneasy.
i want saturday to come, and i want it over.
and after its over,
id want someone to hug.
it wont take the pain, or the feeling of lost away,
but i know itll make me feel better.

itll make me feel better.

what im talking about is how i really feel,
right now.

i still remember the exact words.
"ive got something important to tell you'
and when i heard the news,
everything that ive dreamt off,
everything i wanted,
just vanished.

and then, life goes on.

as of now,
i shall prepare for the worst.
come on.
like ive nvr faced disappoinment before.

ssigh.

ive not been going to ninja classes.
oh man.
my instructor just asked me why.
i miss him.
come one, i was in his classes for practically nine bloody years.
haha.
hmmmm.

on wednesday im performing.
wee~
in school.
for be urself day thingy.
im going to get a new wardrobe^^

in the morning, had maths tuition.
she was half an hour early.
and,
i was still in the shower.
i showed up with my hair wet.
in my living room.
oops.

after that, i went to work.
didnt do much.
mop, swept,
cleared some stuff.
ate.
oh, ya, i dont like the duck im hugging

the duck belongs to her.
toodles~

Fluffy eggs

so, yesterday had drama again,
we did some combat defence,
then we practised our splits..
oww.

that guy is muliano.
i guess thats how u spell his name.
obviously he is a guitarist,
quite a good one actually.
and well known.
he was surprisingly very nice to us all.

well, after drama, went out with Nurdin.
he gave me that sunflower.
for my bday.
how nice.
i love it.
ahah, i just finished watering them anyway.
we went to catch a movie.
kungfu panda.
it was so funny.

oh ya, i extracted my wisdom tooth on the right side two days ago.
the dentist was handsome.
im in pain now coz i forgot to eat the painkillers.
great.

toodles~

Spicy tuna linguini

soo, that is me eating sweet cream and cookies at B&J.
it was yesterda.
so yummmmy
but i prefer peanut buttercups.
they stopped the flavour
garrgh
well, i ate that before watching narnia.

ate it with maisarah.
a cousin of mine.
the show was at seven but then everyone that we were waiting for was late.
huu.
my uncle and his family was supposed to be there.
they were laate.
haha

the cute boy giving the peace sign is Haziq.
his son.
so naughty.
god.
the one carryin him is the maid.
ahha.

si swear to god,
that guy looks creepy.
was late again

from monday till thursday, im having a drama camp.
oh ya, didnt get any roles.
the director, G, said that non of the roles in the set suited me.
i suppose i can just wait for another show then.


i got bored during the practise. god, i wasnt given anything to do.
heck, it was still fun

im not upset though.
well the picture above is the set for the play.
its called flowers in the dessert.
its about a girls home.
u noe the troubles, and the drama of each girl is different in the play.
one thinks she is perfect, one is just angry all the time, one is all holy, and another one is michievious.
well there are other characters.
but i am too lazy to type anyway.
haha. i guess itll be good.
its gonna be the squads debut performance.
i hope we do well coz this performance will either move us forward or ends everything that we have worked for.

toodles~

Nachos

i am currently eating melted cheese.
i love cheese.

er. that thing is from the 1960's
its sort of a punchhole.
my uncles.
hmm. today, was so-so.
did library CIP. was nice.
at jurong.
hahaa.

and fathin saw two indian girls makin ou in the loo.
they were ugly.

urgh.

well, im feelin kinda hungry.
the cheese aint working.
hmm.
im thinking of seafood.

oh ya, i forgot,
after CIP went to jurong point to eat takoyaki.
our favourite.
fathin gave presents to sya.
i already gave mine the other day.
HAPPY BDAY SYA.
it was on 3rd june.
yay. only fathin left to turn 16

my mum just asked why the sun is red
T.T
omfg.
so i said, "it has always been red when it is setting"
and she said,
"oh. "

i think im getting obsessed with webcam.
i shouldnt.

^^
oh yay,
grandma's home.

OH YAAA.
im gg batam for two days.
gg for a spa,
do some facial.
cream bath ^^
manicure, padicure.
pamper myself i guess.
and a bit of shopping
i shall take some pictures.



i guess thats all for now.
toodles

my nails are orange.
all of em.

i feel like going out on a date.

there's gonna be some workshop that i have to go to tomorrow.
going wih syarini.
then maybe we'd grab a cup of coffee.



aint that absolutely stunning.
toodles`