dreaming

why live life,
from dream to dream
and dread the day,
when dreaming, ends.

i dreamt again.
in the space of three hours of sleep
i dreamt.
of all things, i had to dream bout that.
my mind is cheating me.

oh how i hate conscience
it brings me back to earth.
warm and cruel
but it is home.

The odd sensation that i am feeling
is something worth more than a syilling.
Well, try to put you in my shoes
when the ol' cat sings nought but the blues.

-tiara

i wrote that.
i do feel odd right now. its 1.30 am.

Act cute

so long sia never act cute.
ahahah!
wtf.
oklah. the smile and all.
haiyah, later got work. so fun.
i am beginning to love my job though
i love making lattes and cappucino.
sigh~ whoever who knows me, can come down see me lah.
bye

WEE

these things are fucking fun i tell u
haha
i laughed so hard while playing it
i want to go sentosa and play that againnnnnnnnn =D

OUT

hahahaha.
cousins tenga feeling ah.
credits to ica icot. =D

Gurgled

i find myself
staring at something
thinking about everything
and ill end up having a turmoil of emotions
in the pits of my stomache.
a mixture of everything

quest

i would not, i should not. i must not.

i dont want to ruin everything again.




not again.

Shush.

currently,i now have,
three diaries.

Here,
another one from muji
and i just bought another one from a korean shop
its different coz it has lines
and the reason why i bought it coz
the muji one is not that great.
i cant write straight as it has no lines.
empty and white.
so, i will make it to a doodle book.

i'm not very certain why i'm telling you
i have three diaries.
i'm not sure why i'm telling u secrets
i dont know why i trust you enough to tell u how i feel
any other day.
i guess, i just trust you.

marionette

the marionettes are coming.
fool, please heed my warning.
dont put urself in digrace
by so lovely a face.
'coz she is only acting.

-tiara

ahha. i dont know what made me write that
its kind of cute, er. i think
im not sure
im gonna eat more cookies now.
bye

HE.

i think it's hard for ppl to change .
this post is of no significance to anybody/anything.

i have not lighted my strawberry scented candle.
i think i should paint my room half red .
ee, like spore flag
will look like im a patriotic piece of shit. HAHA.
furthermore ive got stars on my ceiling.

** i saw this very intense lad for the fifth time today
i shouldve said hi.
i was hanging out with a friend
as he wanted to smoke.
so HE came along and asked for a lighter.
i just stared, speechless. bloody coincidence.
he had a deep voice. very nice
sigh, i really shouldve smiled at him. he's sexy as hell.

Purchase

at long last, i bought myself the graphic novel of V for vendetta.
i fell in love with the main character.
he is, what teenager's of today would say, very cool.
haha.
he is a fantasy i suppose.
intelligent,serious,humorous and passionate.
and he's got style, thats most definite.
V V V V V. i could say that all day..

if god did grant me my wish. then this is all very odd.
its not the way i planned it but then it is quite close.
it might be god or fate.
is it more to fate? since fate is already decided long before i started wishing.
does fate change or god actually grants us wishes time and again and so fate changes.

what i can honestly say is
i am afraid of the future
and scared shitless on what fate has in store for me.(or god)

what do u think?

pretty eyes

You.

i am not being annoying.
i am being myself. i am not lying.
i am different.
i am an actress, a liar?
i am sad.
i am happier most of the time.
i am funny, i am serious, always? no.
i am a singer.
i am young.

Snooooop

snoopy has made the world a better place
calvin and hobbes too.
their comic characters if u must know. ~

thinking about ants makes me feel like writing :)
here it goes~

little did the ant know
how big the world is through its burrow
and as it scurried for a crumb
its small life ended by a big fat thumb.

-tiara

Lost.

i feel like drinking my life away to waste.
and then the world might make sense
perhaps till then, my mind wouldnt be so fucking screwed.

101st

i just thought of this.
while i was thinking. my 101st post...here it goes-

cry a river,
a river just for me.
so maybe, just maybe
that something, a small thing
would come.
come to me.

and then i would, yes i would.
give a smile
yes, a nice small smile
in return.

and then which
the wind will carry it
carry it and bring,
and deliver it to you.
where you can feel, more than just feel.
no, more than just see.

so cry, cry a river

just for me.

post.

its funny sometimes i feel so.
alone

its not a bad thing i think.
i think.
what about you?

i noticed that i cant smile very well.
its slightly crooked.
or forced? nah.
its not forced.
no.
no.
what do you think?

so, i was told.
to never lie, steal or cheat.
thats pretty goddamn hard to abide.
hard to abide.
hard.
it is.
u think?

New

so, on new years eve,
i had fun.
met with shaz and his friends.
then we skated. apparantly the place was nice.
so after that. went to meet my uncle.
went to watch fireworks.
beautiful.