understanding

Early in the morning she wakes and brushes her hair.

With each careful stroke all she felt was just despair.

 

For years she felt empty, her heart was made of stone.

That's because her daddy passed and left her all alone.

 

No more genuine laughter and no more tears to shed.

No more warmth and softness as she crawls on back to bed.

 

 People thinks she lost her soul, she flushed it down the loo.

They soon forget that she was human and she had feelings too.

 

- tiara aquila

a friend of mine was my complete inspiration for this and all of this is true.

what she does not know is i completely understand the emptiness she goes through.

all i can do is just talk to her, and hope all goes well.

 

wish me luck.

In deep thought again

 

Before falling asleep last night, I started thinking about things.

How life is all about the choices a person makes. 

Sometimes, we realize the choice we made was bad.

I don't like dwelling on bad choices, it depresses me.

I'm not much of an optimist either. Perhaps i'm more of a realist.

I'm not sure about that either. 

Then i realize that in order to feel better about bad choices,

I either get along with my life or i just stop thinking about it.

Its not that hard to stop thinking about something,

you just get occupied and you'd eventually forget. Eventually.

 

apart from that i've been feeling nervous.

about what, i do not know yet. I'd find out soon, perhaps.

sigh

how can someone else say all the right things at once.

i feel wonderful because i see the love light in your eyes - Eric Clapton
i dont see that light anymore.

i see someone forced to stay.