beginning

 

from beauty and the beast.

I could walk with you;

walk a mile, with you.

But there are some things, you wont let me do.

Like loving you,

or kissing you.

Or those sweet things, young lover's do. 

I walk around,

with a sad lil' frown,

thinking of ways for this love to come true.

But the sad truth is,

I'd never feel love's bliss

for your heart was never mine to start with.

                                                                               -Tiara

wishful thinking

from www.postsecret.blogspot.com 

A person can have many, probably hundreds of i want to's....
like,
i want to be smarter.
i want to be better than her/him.
i want to be more interesting.
i want to be beautiful.
i want to be noticed by the one i love.
i want to be perfect.
i want to be special
the list will go on and on..  it will go on forever if one never learns to stop
and ask, how can I make things better? how can i make ME work?
and how is it that everyone else seems to be having an easier time being great besides me?
we probably feel terrible about ourselves all the time.
feeling dejected beyond words, we stop believing in ourselves. we feel like nothing.
but please remember that the only thing that is stopping you from flying is
                                                                 you.

me with a pretty little parrot.

i love amy. really.

I am sitting here awaiting,

in my mind, I am debating.

                        -tiara aquila

i just got back from a trip from perth.

it was a change of scenery and people. needed some of that.

anyway, the couplet above is about the state of mind i am in now.

i sometimes fight with myself, in my mind.

keeps me on my toes i suppose.

all i can say is i await for love to come.

and i am unsure if it will come at all?

i think there is always that moment of time,

when you feel so strangely alone it sickens you.

the lost of murder

it would be too much of a massive lie to tell you 

that everything is great, wonderful, according to plan.

sometimes, more often than we dare to admit,
we lie.
but lying will not take the guilt away.
even if it was a white lie.
even if it were to hide the painful truth. 

no matter how much we chase for free liberty of speech,

we can never seem to get it.

distraught.

we're unsure of many things
life,has just too many stings.

again, you feel the pain inside

you'd want to run, to fly, to hide.

you think, you thought, you've seen it all.
but then, alas, you trip and fall.

                                                 -tiara

 thats all i can say

coz' i am in dismay.

To write my book

taken from www.deviantart.com

the longest hiatus i have taken in my blog,

sorry .

just so you know, im planning to write a book.

yes my very own book.

it will be poem based . its going to be called,

         "One less lonely girl "

no publisher whatsoever, just creating one from scratch. 

giving myself till the end of the year to finish it! 

shall show progress to all of you!

here is a couplet, just for you

i would go through any pain,

just to see you smile again.

- Tiara 

F-ather | F-inding myself

drifting

www.postsecret.blogspot.com

everyone regrets.
right?
 i regret the times when i do things without thinking
and i hurt people whom i care about.

i'm sorry

wishes

got this from http://postsecret.blogspot.com/ .

i feel exactly the same way.

whenever i perform, i feel, free. 

what an enormously satisfying feeling.

i went for an audition and sadly did not make it through the last round. but somehow, i will never give up my dreams. that's when i start to write again, hope you enjoy it whoever you are!

you may have failed once, or twice,

remember, life is not that nice.

you cry, you whine, you get so mad, 

fret not coz' failing's not so bad.

you just need to work a wee' bit more,

coz life has much for you in store!

                                              - Tiara Aquila

its my birthday today and i would like to

thank everyone that remembered and cared enough to wish me.

i know i don't usually say much

but i do appreciate everyone's presence in my life

and i pray that all off you have many happy days in life!

tiara and LuL

this is me and LuL.
He first saw me when i was sitting down on the floor,
smoking. if i could remember correctly that day i was
depressed on something, so i was alone.
im glad he saw me. 

i love that im in love with him now.
and he loves me too.

ideas/secret

 

-taken from postsecret.com

In this mind, there is an idea.

and ideas are bulletproof.

      

this phrase is taken from V for Vendetta.
i do not know how many people would agree with this statement, 
but i think that it is an apt statement when someone believes in something.
ideas would never die, hope could never be gone if we choose it.
faith would never be lost if we never stop believing.
the statement is something i live by, whenever i remember it,
i feel liberated.
thus, i share it with you just in the hopes of you being liberated too.

 

ticking

hello. March has passed
and i scarcely notice it went by.
a couple of months ago i said i wanted to do something different.
so, i went to catch a movie all by myself.

i know its not such a big deal.
it was a bit nerve wrecking and awkward.
i was also horrified when the movie i went to watch,
had gore in it and i almost went out halfway.
it felt really different and i think id like to do something different again.

i miss my friends.all of them.

Back

hello everyone. it has been quite a while since i wrote anything new here. in my mind, i am dancing with much glee, noting that quite a number of you appreciate what i wrote before this post. 

its 3.11 a.m in the morning and here i am again,
feeling this adrenaline rush to write about individuality.


here it goes.

You may be different in one place,
dont let yourself feel so much disgrace.

your character, is like a gem,
it makes you,you. dont change for them.

a Diamond in the rough , you are.

fret not, you are the brightest star.

                               - tiara

i write about this coz' people have always told me that i am aloof and different.

i think people, some people, don't really like those who stand out. 
and they do not seem to like inconsistency, even in character.
i don't really care about them anymore.

i know that you, in some part of your life have felt like u could never belong.

but, it's really okay,  somewhere, someone will understand you. 

Be Right Back.

i had an inspiration on what to write about.
it came around 3.15 in the morning,funny how my mind starts working at this hour.
its about how, one shouldn't despair when your lover, mother, father, sister, bestfriend is away or is gone.
somehow, their still there. always.
here it goes,


When the light that shone, has gone,
you would feel you're all alone.


there is nothing much to fear,
Coz' you're brave enough my dear.


In you're heart you'd feel the light,
it will  guide you through the night.


and you'd feel that love once more
the love from someone you adore.

                             -tiara

i am pretty happy with this one.
i hope you like it, whoever you are.

Get on My horse

hi. i have spent hours sitting here, staring at Amy's picture.
wondering what to write about.

No words comes out my head;

even now i feel much dread.

the words i think was lost, in time.

their all worth more than just a dime.

thinking much around this hour, 

even the milk i got went sour.

                     -tiara

 thanks fauzi. haha. my friend told me to write how frustrated i am that i can't seem to have any inspiration. i hope it doesn't sound as ridiculous as i feel it is. but it was fun writing it anyways.

puppets

hello. 

my life is currently monotonous

except the part where love brightens up my day

each time i meet him.

i am pleased to see the amount of followers my blog has accumulated.
its sort of a celebration in my head.
the last day of school, my sister is graduating.
she cried the other day coz she claims she will miss her friends.
i suppose they'd meet each other again in the near future.
........................

i desire to feel a strong emotion but i cant seem to feel it.
its like i want to do skydiving, or fly a plane.
i want an adrenaline rush, or deep sadness for something.
i want something to happen.
i think my adventure senses are tingling, i suppose everyone feels it from time to time.
but i wonder whats the craziest thing any of you had done.

beauty

hello beautiful.

everyone knows creep by radiohead.

right?
was listening to it this morning
and a rush of nostalgia came over me.
i remember i used to feel that i am not as special as i desire to be.
i think everyone feels the same way too.
but the thing I've found out, this may sound as cheesy as it can be,
is that everyone is special. it depends on how you look at yourself in the mirror.

"I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in pain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand"

-Sting

Holding hands

hello. sorry for being absent for awhile.
i have been busy.


i just did some animation.
i think i kind of like it.
though halfway through,
i had the most strongest desire,
to tear my hair out.
sometimes, i wonder if i would rather become
a housewife,
worrying about whats for dinner
or being an animator,
worrying about handing in projects on time.

i love you more each day..

P.S for guys and girls out there. visit http://chscrcs.blogspot.com/ for awesome shirts!!

new year

its a new, year.

happy new year to you,
yes you.

i have a short list,
one that shouldn't be missed.

This list is a friend,
for those in the bend.

for those, who aren't leading their lives straight
for those, who seems to always be late.

a list that would, turn you anew,
a list i made, just for you.
- tiara.

somehow i know that people usually make lists of resolutions on the start of a fresh year.
its either written or in their minds.
i usually have resolutions in my mind. but it never works im afraid.
i have decided to write them all in a list.
the most basic thing, a checklist.
and may i have all the luck i could conjure to achieve them.
and may you have all the luck too.